Not perfect at all.

If there is one word to describe my first trimester it would be hell. I know, I know it does sound harsh. But honestly! I don't mean to scare anyone who wants to get pregnant as it is different for everyone else. And I can say it is different for me too.

This is actually going to be my fourth baby. Before I rant and also rave on this fourth one. Let me show you my other 3 little angel monsters. :D

The eldest would be Jazel, 9 witty smart years old. The next one would be Juanzen computer addict at the moment 6 years old (another topic on that!)and the youngest as of now (until I give birth) would be be Jhon Javen hurricane 3 years old. Oh yes hurricane, you guys should see my house if I let him lose.

So yes, I am on my fourth now. I found out last month, I was feeling weird - nauseous, lazy and tired. I thought it was just the flu but when I woke up one morning last month feeling a bitter (very bitter) taste in my mouth. I know I am in for another one! From my first to this fourth one (and this will be the last! I hope) I always have this bitter taste in my mouth. For some reasons, this is the biggest "symptom" that I know I am pregnant. That taste of bitterness was just there. It won't go away unless I eat something sweet or something else to cover that taste. But what makes it soooo bad was it goes back after I eat something.

This is actually a new blog for me, I thought of dedicating one for my kids, life as a mommy and why not do the first post on pregnancy? So bare with me if I am incoherent. Blame it to my hormones right now which I really cannot understand.

Not perfect at all. Yes. I know there are a lot of women out there, praying, wishing they would get pregnant and I really pray for them too as I know couple of friends who wants to get pregnant. They all get excited about it and says it would be sooo perfect. When I hear them talk about it, I would just rather keep quiet as I might dampen their mood.

For me it is not perfect at all.

Why? Number 1. That bitter taste I described from my words above. If there is something I am so particular about it would be my mouth. I don't like tasting anything in my mouth. On a regular day, I would just want that minty taste of toothpaste in my mouth. But now? Even the minty taste of toothpaste can't mask the taste of bitterness. I tried looking for the reasons online on why I am having this, I can't seem to find any. So there, I am blaming it again on hormones.

Number 2. That feeling of me getting fat (again) is just horrible. But I am trying to do this mind thing that after 9 months, I can shed it off but I know not immediately because I know I am just kidding myself if I say I can lose it immediately as I am not the type of person who loves exercise, instead I love food.

Number 3. In relation to number 2, I know I don't look like pregnant right now, Instead I look like someone who just ATE A LOT, someone who have loads of "bilbil" and I hate it. People would look and think I am such a big eater. I would rather have bring a big card that says "Hey! I am pregnant!" So I would rather have this fast forward to the last trimester where I know I would definitely look pregnant.

Number 4. Nothing fits me anymore. I know some of you would say, where are your previous pregnancy clothes? Like I have said, I thought I would never get pregnant again so I gave all of it. Yes, every one of them. All of my shirts that are in empire cut, yoga pants and all. So I am thankful right now I still have lose button down shirts and stretchable pants and jeggings. So I will definitely be buying some clothes by the following weeks.

Number 5. The cravings. I am not sure if this is bad or not. But more like NOT. I am loving it as my husband tends to buy my hearts desire right now, well food wise though. He was out last night and I told him I want to eat some cupcakes from Masters Bakery (A bakery here that sells quite cheap bakers cupcakes that is open for 24 hours) and he came home moments after with the cupcakes. lol. How I wish he stays that way even after I give birth. ;)

Number 6. The laundry. This one is on the good side too. I am not doing any of the laundry these days and I guess up to the next new months. Who is doing it? My husband. Hurrray! Well see, this is my fourth and he knows it can be fragile as what my OB said. So he is doing his share of the chores. and I am loving it. :D

Number 7. Chocolates. :( and other sweets. I know for a fact that I need to control my sugar intake as my baby inside might get diabetic so yes, as much as I love eating those sweets. I can't.

So there. It isn't perfect at all. And by Tuesday, I would be starting my second trimester. and I will definitely tell you more about it. I am quite excited as I want to know the gender of the baby. We are rooting for a baby girl and planning on naming her "Jhai". Why? I don't know. It was my husband's idea and it sounds cute. So I am up for it.

I would love to share a picture of its ultrasound but I totally forgot and was able to submit all of it for my SSS. Definitely a big help in times of maternity benefits.

:)